dedeus:
You're in a tough situation but it's not worth picking up, stopping your sobriety just to get the kind of treatment you want or deserve. All I can say is hang in there. It will require willpower and guts but it will get easier over time. Don't pick up, don't give in. Explore the various shelters, facilities available to you and resolve that, whatever happens, whatever comes your way, you're going to get well. And keep posting on this SR. We care about you.
W.