HI TT I just wanted to write on your thread to tell you that i know exactly how you feel. I know the feeling of guilt after youve had a stumble. I hope you feel better today and a little better everyday. Try to focus on the fact that you haven't given up fighting and that you will try to get better again. Its tough but I think one of the most important things is to forgive ourselves. We are human and we make mistakes. Best of wishes to you!