Thank you for your honesty. My AH is addicted to meth. He is a wonderful man with a heart of gold, but meth robs him of his soul and turns into someone I don't even know. We are no longer together and when he calls I refuse to speak to him because he seems to still be under the influence, which makes it difficult to have a rational conversation. Too much blame and self pity on his part, not enough accountability.
I'm so happy that you are working your recovery and that things seem to going in the right direction for you. I know it's not easy, just remember that you're not alone. It gives me hope that one day, my AH, will one day choose sobriety too. Take care and keep posting. You'll find a lot of support here.