A couple of questions- hope that's okay!
So you're ABLE to kick it without meds, but you'd rather not?
Did I misread your post, or did you mention a plan to pick up weed on the 17th? (I'm not sure if that's what you meant as you said weed increases your anxiety, but would like to have it around?)
If you're completely able to detox without medication, why do you think the doctor made you so angry when she didn't prescribe it?
Maybe now isn't the time to suggest it, but- maybe detox/treatment wouldn't be such a bad idea (maybe you've already been?). It really helped me.
Hang in there! Hope you feel better soon.