Dear no excuses,
I understand your feelings and yes, they will get better. Take things one day at a time and if that doesn't work, take things one hour at a time. Just get through one moment and then the next one and then the next one. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other.
Remember, drinking is absolutely not going to make things better. It might numb out your anxiety for a while, but when the alcohol wears off, you'll be dealing with feelings of guilt and failure on top of everything else you are dealing with. That is the last thing you need in your life right now.
Hang in there. We're rooting for you.