Angel I hope you reread Ann's post over and over. Only YOU can break this cycle. There is no reason for you to have any communication with this man or his family. If you truly want him and the chaos he brings out of your life then you will make the necessary steps to get that done. Sometimes being so wrapped up in it all we cannot see how our own behaviors add to the problem. Take a step back and ask yourself how you can break this cycle once and for all. You hold the key. Please understand the people here posting do so with great care for your well being and want what is best for you.