Wow. I read so many posts on sober people living with addicted spouses. I have yet to read about addicted people living with stubbornly sober spouses. I wonder what HIS post would look like if HE posted about me. So here it goes SR. My stubbornly sober husband has not picked up since I went to rehab as I have previously posted. Last night, I say to husband, I am so proud of you for not drinking (as I pour myself another). He said, "it doesn't mean I don't want to drink". I have thought about what he said all night long. It touched me deep. It must be incredibly difficult to see me drinking the past six nights and not have one himself. Seriously, how horribly selfish of me. If I keep picking up, will he eventually also? Will it be because of me? No I cannot let this happen. So today, just today SR, I am praying hard to not pick up today. I don't know what tomorrow will look like and I make no promises. But today, I shall not pick up.
