Day 1: Yet again (Massive Relaspe)
After 2 months of lovely sobriety, I picked up a drink and spent the past week and a bit convincing myself I wasn't an alcoholic.
As ridiculous as this sounds now, I was drunk at the time of the convincing.
Feeling pretty low and depressed, not been so low since I quit last time.
I hate Christmas and New Year, it seemed like it was socially acceptable for everyone to enjoy a drink but me. I took it personally and drank heavily.
Missed most of yesterday, due to illness (you know the type), had a pick me up and sat down at 1am this morning looking at myself in the mirror.
For 2 months I had been free and sober and it felt good. That was 2 months of not feeling crap, no hangovers no depression.
I did once, I am determined to do again and longer this time, I will not stop trying and I will not pickup that deadly first drink.
So here we are, a new year, a new start and day 1 again.