angry and hostile feelings
My latest wave of emotions includes some significant hostile feelings towards my family and childs mother, bordering on hatred. I'm aware that my extremes in mood are exasperated right now due to being so early in recovery. I've been suppressing a lot of emotions off feeling wronged by these people. At this point I can't even look at my kids mom without feeling like a damn fool for letting the relationship go on for so much longer than it should have. Every moment I spend sober around this woman I feel more solid in my decision to end the relationship. I have to deal with her on a daily basis because our son is so young, and I have to keep my cool. I felt great comming from my AA meeting to see my son, but just a few minutes around her got me bent out of shape.
So here I am trying to calm myself.