Resenting him
My recovering abf and I broke up once again a few days before Xmas. This is the last time. He has already tried to suck me back in but I just can not waste another year of my life. Part of me continued trying because I had put so much work in. I didn't want to accept I couldn't make it work. Now I find myself resenting him for all of the things I did for him, especially over the past two years. He lost his license because of a DUI and I drove him everyday to work, to random drug testing, to required alcohol classes and counseling. I drove most weeks 25 min each way to pick up his daughter, who I love and will miss so much.
How do I let go of the resentment. I know I made these decisions myself and I am responsible. But I still feel so much anger that after everything I did he couldn't be there for me. I also am angry at myself that I ever allowed someone to have such a hold on me. Prior to him, I was never in such an unhealthy relationship.