benefits
I know exactly where you're coming from. I thought like that for a while and it was really keeping me stuck. However, I've had a bit of a lightbulb moment this week.
My reward for the past 3 years is my recovery and the prospect of having a healthy relationship in the future. Even though I've got a long way to go, I am in a healthier place than I have ever been. I was only with my ex for 3 years until dec 04, but I realise that I have had codie issues all my life.