Hi Autan. I had some crazy thoughts too in the lead up to Christmas Day.
Like others have said, some do it tougher than others....it's not necessarily going to be easy - BUT
It's just one day of many. Is all this sober time, all the positive choices you've made, worth it for one day when we 'think' we need to celebrate it with alcohol?
We've tried alcohol, we know it doesn't work for us. It's no way to celebrate for us. It would be sad, Autan.
Big hugs. It's Christmas lunch here in Australia. Christmas Eve was tough, but having a brilliant day. I hope you do too.
Hang in there.