KKE---I remember when you were pregnant and the emotional suffering you went through--with your husb. as well as enduring the miscarriage. You have seen what life is like with him during pregnancy as well as when you are not pregnant.
As Lena suggested--- ask your self the hard questions...NOW. I can tell you, it is a much rougher road after you have children. Many times more difficult. Now is the time to get honest with yourself. Is this the kind of family life you want for your children? Your husband is an alcoholic for l ife. Even with recovery--there is always the specter of relapse.
As for me--the pain of relapse has been much worse than the origional wound of the drinking.
You are young....you can decide, freely, how you want the rest of your life to be. He is responsible for his life and his decisions. You, likewise, are responsible for your decisions as well as the consequences of the decisions. This is why you must be brutally honest with yourself--as well as him.
dandylion