Imagine if you take that feeling, and drink then add that fail to your present feeling. Instead of feeling sorry I would ask you what you are doing other than internalizing your blues. Have you seen a doc about depression? Gotten in any local face to face support like group counseling, one on one, or if funds are lacking AA?
It took me a long time past six months to really feel internally different. It wasn't until two years sober that I saw how little I was working to where I wanted to be. Alcohol created the delusion of excitement, without my having to actually know or do anything past sitting down on my butt and drinking.
We all know and have been there. Feeling itself is good. If we could not feel pain, we wouldn't pull our hands out of the fire. If you can't pull them out yourself, get some help here and locally.