I am very fearful of relapsing. I've been a daily drinker since high school. Latest drinking habit was a bottle of wine and one or two martinis every night. I am now close to 90 days sober. I've quit twice before. One time for 30 days after A major accident. And more recently after I developed bad vertigo. This is scary stuff. I feel very strong at the moment and have moments of pure thankfulness. But.....what if. Don't want to be a downer, sorry. Five years is so awesome.