Welcome DaughterNeedsMe! So glad you stumbled upon up!!
Stick around here for a while and read and post. SR is a wonderful tool to use on the road to recovery. You are not alone. You are fighting a demon and you need to learn how to stand up to it and just stay "NO!"
I agree that rereading this post is something you should do whenever you get that "brilliant" idea to have just one... Your daughter needs you to be present. And, the consequences of your drinking do not improve while you continue to drink. It really is not worth it....
Just take it one day at a time.
And again, Welcome!!!