Originally Posted by
meggygoround30 
And the twisted part is all I can think about are the good things about him, even though he abused me countless times. I don't understand how I could so easily let him back in every single time. Something he would say or do would melt my heart and love him again. It's SO HARD for me to open my eyes to the addiction and violence.
I am so sorry that you have had to deal with this. I am pretty much in the same boat as you. I left my home a little over 2 weeks ago and am also struggling with the part of your post that I quoted.
I just wanted you to know you are not alone. The wonderful people here will advice you and give you insight, please hear their words.
Please take care of yourself, you need it and deserve it. Hugs!
