dear upsetnneedhelp, these boards are filled with factual information and real life testimonials of what people have endured living with a "functioning alcoholics "
Perhaps sometime in the near future, you can take a few minutes and read what life is like with an active, live and unplugged addict.
I really had to take the time and educate myself about addiction, only then could I understand the big picture.
Peace to you, my friend.