In and out of sobriety
I seem to really be struggling to make the whole sobriety thing stick. Got hammered it last night after 34 days of sobriety and am dealing with the fallout today.
I first admitted I had a serious problem in April this year and I've been in and out of AA and sobriety in general since. The longest sober period I've had so far is about 3 months, with a few other shorter runs.
I've posted here before about how I've let complacency get the better of me before. It seems like the pattern for me is to have a alcohol-related crisis erupt, focus on sobriety, get a few months in and then lose focus. I start to drink "in moderation", and then rocket past moderation straight back to "swimming in booze."
Is this sort of "in and out" pattern something you guys have dealt with? How have you gotten past it?