Thanks Hawkeye, the same to you!
I know that I can never go back. I forgot to mention this is not the first time I have "left" him. Twice before, due to other women and once due to needing to go back home and renew my passport. 3 times I went back because he cried how much he loved me and wanted me, and how things were going to change. Well, they never did. I am not falling for that one again.
Not only that, but the way the relationship evolved, we are definitely not good for each other. So, yeah. It is absolutely over this time.