Thanks jdooner. At the moment I don't trust myself to make any major decisions. I'm nearly 5 months sober and I know I'm all over the place, mentally.
I know in this country any how's, the best solicitor to be is a divorce one, they bleed us dry. I couldn't trust myself that they would take advantage of my vulnerability and I would be swayed one way or the other.
The one thing I know for certain, at this moment in time, is I want our marriage to start working. How I get it to start, hard work. But in the morning I may want it to end.
So, for now I have to keep quiet and get myself mentally strong then find that path where I can find me, who got lost and took the wrong road a long time ago.