I give up
So I've been sober since 20 July this year and my husband blamed my boozing on everything! Quite rightly, ridden with guilt, I took all the blame on the chin.
Turns out, he is still visiting porn sites and most the time, although we are getting on great otherwise, he won't touch me.
I was advised, not on SR, that he may be having an affair and I wanted to get to bottom of this.
He watches porn on his iPad, unsure if he pays for specific girls or video links, heard him looking for his wallet on one occasion.
Last night I confronted him saying after our conversation last week I thought he wanted to make a go of it. He said nothing. I said if he wants to 'speak' with girls on his iPad instead of a relationship with me then so be it, him to decide. Tried not to give him ultimatums but I have been on eggshells since we rowed in July.
Then talked about tv and his game on the iPad like nothing happened.
He slept on his chair till I switched all lights off and said to go to bed where he nearly took my head off when I was going to put my arm around him.
He needs to decide if he wants a wife or a sister/mother cos I'm only willing to fulfill the wife bit.
I have widened the gap between us by opening my mouth and had about an hours sleep. Thankyou any SR friends for reading this.