Originally Posted by
Johnston 
I relate to what you're going through. My health caused me great anxiety when I was drinking. It's such a paradox - we knowingly do so much damage to ourselves when drinking, while simultaneously fearing for our health.
This was so true for me. The depression and fear I had of just going to the doctor knowing what I was doing to myself every night was awful. Finally had some not so serious cardiac issues and decided enough was enough. Hope I never drink again, had some close calls but so far my resolve is strong and feeling healthy is such a gift. Don't ever want to go back.