The first 60 days are awful. I was ready to drink again then as well. It's really difficult to get past 60, 90, 120 days. But once you can get to 6 months or a year, that's when things start to fall in place. I heard an old timer in the meeting say last night that the first 30 days felt longer then the last 10 years of sobriety. I lost all my friends due to drinking and then any that I had left when I got sober. I stuck my head in the sand and pushed forward for months, staying sober one day at a time. I was depressed, lonely, miserable. But I stayed sober. And now at 7 months I am finally starting to get a life that I actually want. Good luck. It really does get better, it just takes a lot of time and a ton of patience.