Hey tobies,
Just checking in after a few busy days.
Thank you Free2Be for posting about your struggles. Without your honesty we would not have gotten all those great, wise posts of support.
I got out of rehab on Thanksgiving and immediately began having cravings that weren't present while I was in rehab. I've been able to get through the urges but I did begin smoking again. I'm not proud of it but it really seemed like the lesser of 2 evils. It's strange because smoking and drinking do completely different things for me but smoking does help me withstand the urge to drink.
I am eating well and exercising and feel 1000% better than when I was drinking. My plan is to get through December sober and then quit smoking again for the new year when I have gotten more accustomed to being sober in the real world.