Hi Lily, You are so right, you must keep the focus on you and maintaining your sobriety! What's done is done. To obsess over this will serve no good purpose. Concentrate on your health and the health of your family. You are sober now, don't let a trigger awaken that demon. If you must fear, fear a relapse. Otherwise, be the strong woman you are. Don't dwell, go forward. You are in my prayers Lily. TF