I have had a rough patch with our extended family these past few days. My mother and my husband's mother are both difficult personalities, to say the least. My MIL was staying with us for the week and I had one of those fun "Mommy is drunk" conversations with my mother at 8:30 this morning. So, I can't pretend that the thoughts of drowning out all of the angst ridden mixed emotions of dealing with these ladies, didn't cross my mind. One thing that is really settling into me though, is that I like that no one has me being a drunk "over me" right now. No one can discount me as just a drunk. I also have a clearer idea that I need to take care of myself as much as I take care of others. I feel more confident and sure of myself, so dealing with people who make mincemeat out of my emotions is somehow a little easier and less devastating. I am a better mother to my children as a sober person, but I am also a better mother to MY inner child, as a sober person.
