Chaili ... Thank goodness for caffeine.
The part ... "remembrance without hope can result in resignation" ... is all too familiar. Dark times. There were a couple of instances when I felt like I was on the brink. Where I was tempted with the decision to just give up and plunge 100% into the downward spiral of alcohol abuse. Thank goodness I didn't do that. I may not have completely embraced sobriety, but neither did I completely give up.
I think a lot of us have spent time in that numb void between the two extremes. Maybe it's necessary to spend some time wandering in the desert before we are ready to begin the difficult journey of sobriety.