Tigers, I wasn't being poetic, if anything I was being gentle. Why do you think so many people thanked my post? It wasn't because it was clever or poetic or because it was good writing but because I was telling their story as well.
Every single one of us was where you are now. Every single one of us thought this was the right relationship at that time. Every single one of us thought our relationship was special.
WE WERE WRONG!
I am not being poetic when I talk about hell because that's what I lived through. I only got out because I reached a point where I thought it would be better to be dead than live like I was living. That scared me enough that I finally had a moment of clarity, accepted reality as it was and began the slow very painful path to recovery for me.
Try reading this thread,
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-1-a.html
It is part one of three and will give you good insight into what your future is like.
Your friend,