Pippi- it does sound like PTSD for sure. I am sorry to hear about your past experience. That sounds frightening! What things have helped you? I really need to get some counseling, and maybe talk to a doctor about some sleep medication. If I don't get sleep soon I just might break-down.
Seren, thank you for letting me know about that! I have now signed up for alerts. It will help me to also stop compulsively looking at the roster for updates.