Originally Posted by
crazybritters 
Why do I feel so scared? Why do I feel like living a sober life sounds absolutely terrible?
Because to an alcoholic, we see the problem (alcohol) as our only solution. Until you are desperate enough to seriously try giving up the mythical solution, it's almost impossible to quit. There are lots of words that describe it: denial, delusion, reservations, justifications, fear... but they are only as real as you allow them to be. Get to another meeting, stay open minded, and get a sponsor. Sobriety is not what you think it is - it's a gift, not a sacrifice.
Good luck, you are not alone.