Hi Newme
Hope that you get something out of your first meeting. I attend regularly and it helps so much. Totally get the appearances thing...
Two things used to worry me. Being seen by someone i knew at a meeting, and actually being caught praying!!!
This is a man that would fall down drunk and vomiting in the middle of the day in the town of his birth. On shopping day!
Like they say, 'everybody then knew the monkey but the monkey knew nobody'. I was that sick monkey.
Very best wishes on your journey.
G