Hello. I think going to A.A. and working the steps is a great way to learn to live soberly and to help others. I think you should go. I remember I was scared as hell my first time but I came away with a profound sense of hope that things would be different now... and they were! If your meeting is a discussion meeting, don't be worried about speaking, you can just introduce yourself and then say "I'm just hear to listen tonight, I pass." If it is a lead meeting (someone gets up and tells their story), just sit back and listen and stay for the comments afterwards. You will not regret going and you are not alone. Good Luck! P.S. Don't be worried about who will be there, they are there because they are just like you!