I understand where you are coming from with social anxiety and mentally beating yourself up. I can relate as well. Have you ever thought about trying therapy? I think therapy is a great opportunity to help learn new ways to face anxiety and to love yourself. I am 28 and sometimes question the fact that I am still single. Lately I stop myself when I start thinking that way because I know for the first time ever I am working on loving myself. As they say you must love yourself before you love anyone else. I truly believe that. 30 is young and you have a lot of time ahead of you. Try to take each day as it comes. Things will fall into place, just keep having faith and take one day at a time. Keep your head up
