Anne,
from all accounts form your post, you owe it to yourself to at least give AA a fair shot. You found time to drink right? I don't put in half the effort I put into drinking. I'm still sober many 24 hours later. Where abouts do you live? Any larger city has meetings around the clock. I drank round the clock might as well have a meetings like that.
Go to meetings until you want to go to meetings. That's what was told to me early on in my sobriety. You know what, it's worked over a 1000 some meetings later I'm still here and I can't wait to get up each day
Chris