DD, I like what you explain there. I was listening to an AA speaker online and he explained that for him when defining his alcoholism, the strong factor was that he knew that every time he drank, there was no for sure guarantee what was going to happen. That resonated with me, especially right now with under 30 days clean and my AV talking to me. Who cares about strict definitions- I know that when I drink I DO NOT know exactly how it will end... And that's becoming easier for me to accept.