I think deep down I want it to be forever too, Bilr, and I am definitely moving in that direction. The more sobriety seems more my norm (and certainly, no one can deny the benefits to sobriety), the more I think my mind gets used to the fact that I will never drink alcohol again and I am coming closer to really letting it sink in that not drinking alcohol really isn't a sacrifice. I wish I could be as steadfast as you seem to be, but I am honestly just not there yet.