You are doing pretty good then Brugmansia! You should be proud of yourself for taking steps to be a healthier you! You probably would have never done that had you still been with him. I have alcoholic parents so my dad was phsically abusive when he was around, and my mom was mentally abusive, so I kind of know how you feel with the hurt of not having a great parental unit. Maybe the positive from your ex boyfriend leaving is that you are becoming an overall healthier you? We're all here for you, you are doing a great job!