Keep hanging around and reading, Cascabel. Skye has a point. I relapsed last week after 6 months because I was frustrated with life and just said, "Screw it." I, too, really enjoyed my wine and subsequent ale. It was only because my conscience bothered me that I decided to give it up again--no deep conviction--till I came back to SR. Reading about other people's deep convictions refreshed my own; plus, I vented what was really bothering me, and now I find the triggers aren't there anymore. Definitely watch yourself, and open up for the good folks at SR to watch over you, too.