You ask what is wrong with you Lorelai? I say NOTHING! Think of all the sober days you've had since 31st August that you wouldn't otherwise have had if you didn't decide to take this journey. Stop being so hard on yourself (believe me I know it's a difficult cycle to break!) and put that energy into recovery! Look at the times you've slipped and what the triggers might have been and think about how you might deal with it differently next time.
Wishing you as always the best for your recovery
