Originally Posted by
glitterdeva 
I don't know how to grief at all, I just break down. I cried for 2 days and somehow ended up with a bad kidney infection. I break down, I cannot get up, cannot take care of my kids, cannot work. I feel like I am losing my life and my mind. It's this feeling - like this person that used to love you, used to care, used to be a person is no longer human. I hope and pray that one day I will get to this good place of acceptance.
That's how you do it. You're doing it. grieving is hard work. And there isn't just one way to do it, it is as unique as you and the relationship you've lost. Take it one day at a time, put one foot in front of the other, take care of the kids, lean on family, friends, church folks. (((hugs)))