Good to see you still here, AW. Back in Beantown, huh? My hometown ain't too bad. :-)
I agree with Dee. We've been reading your posts for a while and know your penchant for finding the "can't" in your situation. Time to get to the "can". Wait, that sounds wrong...lol, I'm not telling you to go the bathroom. :-D And I do agree that giving more may bring you joy and fullfillment during these dark moments. Anyhow, take what you like...or not. :-)
Take care and stay chill!
June