Originally Posted by
dreamr 
... I don't expect not to be tempted, but I do expect God to provide the power to say no every time.
That's exactly what I spent years trying to find. When I failed to find it the first year, I tried harder the second year, then I tried even harder the third year. It was by far the hardest struggle of my life.
When I finally gave up chasing sobriety, it turned around and chased me. At first I was resentful because it was not exactly what I wanted, it was not how I wanted it and it was not at the time I wanted it. I even cursed God for ruining all of my plans. It took awhile for me to see it but then I realized, it was better than anything I could have planned for myself.
"
All expectations are seeds for resentment"
(Chuang Tzu)
"
Sought after virtue is not true virtue."
(Laozi)