It's such a sad day when you realize the only feelings remaining for your AH is pure hatred. Twenty long years and I want nothing more then him to leave our lives. We are so peaceful when he isn't around. I always knew this day would come, but I still grieve the possibility of salvaging the marriage I thought I would have forever.
I don't think there's anything wrong with feeling what you feel. It's normal.
But you can't allow those feelings to dictate your decision making because that's what can get you into a boatload of trouble...
ZoSo