i decided that 3 years of binging every weekend is enough. I cannot remember when is the last time I went sober just one weekend the last three years. i live 400 miles away from family, and when i am with them, i also use. secretly. i hate the person ive become. broke, lonely, unhappy, out of shape, and unproductive. ive made some bad decisions and lost out on some good friendships and relationships. i chose this week to start working out in the mornings to keep my mind off it. im gonna take the weekends off to rest, but i have to really try to stay away from the influences in my life that could cause me to give in to the temptation. aside from working out and cooking at home, i am going to use sites like this as well to keep my mind off the cravings. i am glad to see i am not alone and appreciate any support. my habits have gotten the best of me and i have so much to be thankful for.
