Originally Posted by
AB3 
Ever since I joined and made my first thread, I've gone through three relapses over the course of about 3 weeks. No trigger, just letting the alcoholic voice overpower my logical, reasonable voice.
But after Monday night (currently back at day 3,) I think I've truly come to terms with the fact that enough is enough.
Welcome AB3!
Same thing happened to me. I was the Queen of Relapses so I thought.
Upon retrospection, I don't believe my "so called" relapses were even a relapse in the first place. Rather, I now believe it was more the fact that I never actually stopped in the first place. Just the same thing over and over and over and over... etc... Sprinkled with a many failed sobriety attempts in between.
It wasn't until I read about the alcoholic voice on various posts here on SR. These posts helped me to become more aware of my own internal dialogue.
My watershed moment was on a warm summer day. I will never forget it. It was early afternoon August 26, 2013.
It was the very first time I stood up to the Beast and screamed, "NO! NOT AGAIN!!! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!"
I haven't a drink since and I have absolutely no desire to ever go back!!!
I am so glad for you. It seems like you also had a similar awakening!!!
