Hammer

So sorry on the pain, it is probably just more the Acknowledgment, and Acceptance. Means you are working your way through this all.

You are also likely correct that it showed before the Addiction(s). Typical the Personality Disorder level problems (Antisocial, among them) start to clearly foreshadow at around 8 to 11 years old.

The formal diagnosis is generally avoided until they are older for fear of "labeling" the child. Sadly that also often avoids effective early treatment. While some A's begin to self medicate that early, many do not hit into their drug of choice until mid to late teens.

Then the Addictions have to be treated before the Personality Disorder, or Brain Dysfunction can be considered.