101 days - unsure of a sober future
Well I am at 101 days sober - and the last few days have been rough.
I was doing so good the first 3 months; but the cravings have been hot and heavy this week.
I feel like "OK I did the sober thing, I feel better physically and mentally, maybe I can have some fun and drink in moderation". And when I say moderation I mean a few drinks once a week if I am out somewhere or something.
I have this wedding coming up Saturday - I have been dreading it for months and think that worrying about getting through the night sober is bringing on the cravings.
Well I am determined to stay the course - I will stay sober at the wedding - and hopefully these current feelings will go away after the wedding.
Next its the holidays, and I have 9 straight days off work at Christmas.......