The life you want is there for you. IT IS THERE FOR YOU!! How much do you want it? The urges to drink May be fierce to start but that is the price you have to pay to get the life you want. The urges will get less as the days pass but you must be patient. Keep posting and reading on here I think this will help to keep you focused. Make sobriety your number one priority. Do anything but don't drink. I repeat the life you want is there for you and everyone if we are prepared to put the effort in. Good luck.