Angela. Congratulations on your new beginning. If we don't change, nothing changes. As you have had "a lot of day 1's but almost never a day 2" I would ask what do you intend to do differently this time? You cannot do the same thing and expect different results. I would suggest attending a local A.A. meeting or talking to a counselor, focus on getting through one day at a time.... and remember "it's the first drink that gets you drunk."